Sometimes, probably too often, I wonder why I wasn't born in another time period. So many things nowadays do not make sense to me, and when I hear about things 30 years ago, 50 years ago, 100 years ago, 400 years ago, etc. I relate so much better to them. I think I would have gotten on much better with people of those generations in a lot of ways.

And then I remind myself, that what I love and value about the past and those other time periods, is what I have to offer to this world. I was not born then because there were plenty of people like me then. What I have to offer to the world is now.

That is a pretty awesome and extremely helpful reminder. I am the only me, and the Lord knew what He was doing when He created me and I was born in 1987. I am the only me, and I am the only one who can offer to the world what I can offer to the world. A scary, big job, but one the Lord created me for, and it won't be big if He is with me, and He always will be.

Such a strong reaction I can't not answer it. I think I would cry, and that's a good thing. It makes me think about how awesome my life is now and how I don't want to change the life I have (other than obviously I want to be a better person). And after crying I would think about Life on Mars, and then I would laugh and laugh until I cried again.

The end.

Life usually feels really long. Today, it feels like a drop in the bucket compared to eternity. I do think I will have a much easier time finding a use if I can get married and raise children, but who ever said life was easy? Today I'm feeling like I can wait till heaven to find my CP. Imagine meeting him for the first time in heaven. So excited!

I love moments when I realize the Lord is in charge and knows what He is doing!

This entry is inspired by Kendra's from a few weeks ago. If you haven't read it, go read it. It is also inspired by Beauty and The Beast. I haven't seen that in years, but two songs from it popped into my head today so I'm going to write about them.

1) Belle's song in the town square. Don't know what it's called but the line from it is "here's where she meets Prince Charming. But she doesn't discover that it's him till chapter three!"

2) Maybe the title of the song, maybe just line repeated in the song "There's something there that wasn't there before"

If you've read Kendra's entry, and you should have by now, you probably know where I'm going with this.

I'm not going to write a long entry about this. I'm just gonna say that this is kidna two ways you could arrive at an "Ah ha" moment or she is mine/he is mine moment, even if it didn't seem to click at first or if you've known someone and ruled them out because you didn't like them at first, or whatever. Maybe it wasn't there before. Maybe you just won't discover it till chapter 3. :)

Kinda cheesey, but also true. Also, the Beast is awesome.... better looking as a beast than a prince.

I know I've done this before, but I think some of the questions are different

1. Put your iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your next answer.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how outrageous it sounds!


IF SOMEONE SAYS, “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Chains ~Beatles

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Extraordinary Machine ~Fiona Apple

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
True Colors ~ Phil Colins (oddly, last time I did this, this song came up for the first question.... and I hardly ever listen to this song.)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Little Child ~Beatles

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
I've Got A Feeling ~Beatles

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Look Back ~North and South

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
The Luckiest ~Ben Folds

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Sleep Well ~Solomon Keal

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
How Can I keep From Singing? ~Enya

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Throw Away Your Television ~ Red Hot Chili Peppers

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Time After Time ~Mark Williams & Tara Morice

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
In Quiet Fields ~Tim Janis

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
It Don't Mean A Thing If It Ain't Got That Swing ~Chapter 6

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
You Can't Hurry Love ~Phil Collins

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
No Tie Ups ~Wolfstone

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Madame Guillotine ~Scarlet Pimpernel (musical)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Steven's Last Night in Town ~Ben Folds

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Two Couples ~Little Women soundtrack

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Holy Ground ~Wolfstone

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Not for the Life of Me ~Thoroughly Modern Millie (musical)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Tennis Elbow ~Adam Young

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Minor Thing ~Red Hot Chili Peppers

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
I Wish I Was ~Cara Dillon

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Challengers ~The New Peoples (that's what they're called in my iTunes)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
All the Delights of the Season ~Sense and Sensibility

You Act Like You Are 22 Years Old

You are a twenty-something at heart. You feel like an adult, and you're optimistic about life. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. You're still figuring out your place in the world and how you want your life to shape up. The world is full of possibilities, and you can't wait to explore many of them.

This thing has been accurate every time I have taken it. This is obviously slightly off about my age, but the description is pretty accurate.

So, today I was trying to change Eleora's diaper, and like usual, she was wriggling and twisting. Several times she bonked her head on things and of course the twisting made the diaper changing take more then twice as long as it needed to. Anyone who has ever changed a diaper knows these things. But saying out loud to Vera my frustration at this situation made me realize something that I suppose I gave away in the title of this post. I said to Vera "Isn't it funny how this would take so much less time if she just cooperated and stayed still? Isn't it funny how she wouldn't get hurt if she just listened and stopped trying to get away?" And in saying that I realized and said again to Vera. "I guess most of life is like that. Regeneration would be so much easier if we would just stop rolling away."

And it's true. If we would just stop struggling against the Lord's plans He could just help us. All we need to do is cooperate with Him and stop fighting. Life would be so much easier if we would stop running from help.

 Does anyone else feel guilty when someone leaves a message on your phone that is definitely not for you? It's easy to delete a message that says something like "Hey Helen, this is Bob, call me back" but if someone says "Please call me back, or I'll have to offer this apartment to someone else" I feel like calling the guy back and saying "Hey, you misdialed, track down the right number" cause I don't want someone to lose their apartment because of someone dialing the wrong number. Just the other night my phone rang at about 12:30, waking me up and I just silenced it, then I heard the new message sound and decided to listen to it in case it was important. No one calls in the middle of the night unless it's important. So I listened to the message and it was some guy saying that someone was upset that the delivery person was a girl he said something like "she thought I was flirting with you, which I wasn't. So if you could send it by post or have someone else deliver it... I don't want to upset her"

I was kinda stunned. Obviously the message wasn't for me, but I felt badly. I kinda wanted to call him back and say, "hey, wrong number" cause I really didn't want him to think that whoever she was was disregarding his message or have him be angry with her if she did show up.

Does anyone feel a responsibility to call wrong numbers back?

 Obviously don't read this if you aren't caught up on Lost and don't want things spoiled.

I just realized that I don't really know what Purgatory is so I started reading about it in the most reliable place ever: Wikipedia. At first I didn't see how it was different from the world of spirits. "According to Catholic doctrine, some souls are not sufficiently free from sin and its consequences to enter the state of heaven immediately, nor are they so sinful as to be destined for hell either."

But then it goes on to say that "purgatory is a cleansing that involves painful temporal punishment" which is not something we believe.

Another idea is that people on earth can pray for people in purgatory: "Because of the communion of saints, the faithful who are still pilgrims on earth are able to help the souls in purgatory by offering prayers in suffrage for them, especially the Eucharistic sacrifice. They also help them by almsgiving, indulgences, and works of penance." This is also a weird idea to me. I don't believe that we can help people who have already died.

Now more specifically about Lost. The Island was not purgatory, but it seems that the flash sideways was. If the flash sideways, and only the flash sideways, was "purgatory" then it's not really like purgatory, is it? In the flash sideways there wasn't painful punishment. Some of them had to deal with hard stuff, like Locke getting run over and Desmond and Charlie almost drowning, but I wouldn't call that painful punishment. But it isn't like the world of spirits either, because things changed. In the world of spirits, people wake up in the same state and things aren't different. The whole point is that they're the same.

I understand why Lost decided to change things. In order for Jack to fix his relationship with his dad, he needed to have a son, to realize what it was like. I don't know why Locke's deal changed. I'm not sure what his father had to do with his regeneration.
I really liked the fact that everyone still had the same evil tendencies, but were learning to deal with them differently. Sawyer learned to do with his sad childhood by being cop and helping other people. Ben dealt with his love of dominion, by thinking of someone else instead of himself and his own honor, reputation and gain. As I said above, Jack learned to deal with his dad issues and you could see other people dealing with theirs. Really cool. They weren't just perfect, they had to deal with things.

Of course, there were still a lot of things not answered. Oh well.

But anyone have any thoughts on purgatory? I can't wait to hear a few more interviews with the producers.

JANUARY: I can't begin this year by crying!

FEBRUARY: Take a walk down town, and dream with me

MARCH: People often talk about things in the doctrines being descriptive, not prescriptive.

APRIL: There I was in the middle of a social event.

MAY: When searching for things on google I like to type very slowly, letter by letter, and see how many letters it takes to come up with what I am searching for.

JUNE: I just had a dream that I was at the Glenn's house... wearing a BATHING SUIT!

JULY: Breathe and I'll carry you away into the velvet sky

AUGUST: Random Words

SEPTEMBER: Last night I had a dream that Mama threw out my favorite doll named "Alison Doll."

OCTOBER: My facebook status was getting too long and complicated so here comes another post.

NOVEMBER: All human situations have their inconveniences.

DECEMBER: I've been thinking a lot about this concept.